turns out i'm actually free!
substack i take it back!
i haven’t posted in a month.
wow! what! no way!
it just kind of happened, i swear! after i lost my streak i just said “fuck it” and decided to stop posting weekly and write when i feel driven to, you know, for myself and stuff. this is the first thing i’ve written since making that decision.
i think my trouble as of late re: posting weekly has been finding time to write while being sure i’m writing something substantial that i’m proud of. (realistic? maybe not!) posting weekly (initially) was something that fueled me to stay consistent with myself. i was cranking shit out because i was working at a job where i could write at the register (lmao). i had more time to sit in front of a computer. now i have a new job and the days go by faster. some weeks i was rushing to get something posted to maintain the streak. i didn’t feel like i was writing anything that felt purposeful (with the exception of a few posts). that’s the nature of writing, right? some shit will be good and some will be rushed. i just felt like the majority of my recent posts have been rushed. it’s not a stellar feeling.
plus i’m doing a lot of stuff!! i’m trying to be an actor again while writing my screenplay, i’m running herbal supplements, and am now starting the design phase for groovy zine– i’m stretched thin! i’ve been creatively burnt out for over two months. something as simple as a weekly substack post is taking more out of me that i think can be placed elsewhere. girl, i’m only human!!!!
but shit! i posted for almost 110 weeks consecutively. i consider that a slay. i’m happy and proud of that work, but moving forward i’d like to write with more intention and care. no rushing to the last minute. maybe it’ll be good for my Writer’s Brain. let’s see!
i’ll be back soon or whatever, but for now i’m free!!!!
xoxo